The Invisible Agony

Mervyn D'Silva
July 27, 2017

The village we lived in was a heaven on earth,
From tall trees, chirping birds, and the smell of cashew.
We’d grow our crop, and nurture it from birth;
Solution to spoilt crop, came with a helicopter that flew.

‘Endosulfan’, the medicine is sprayed,
On trees, on flowers, on rivers, on tars.
And just when, the crops had the pathway laid,
The medicine helped us feast on cheap fish, but sour!

And then we heard cries, from mothers far and near,
But our crop kept us happy, we lent no ear.
I too was a mother soon, like every mothers baby
She was my boon, even though my in-laws claimed-
“She looks like a cartoon!”

But my sister, bore children like this,
And so did my best friend; the neighbours child now lisped.
The snake’s spell continued to hiss,
And I waded my child, good-bye, with one last kiss.

I ran from raja to sarkara, adhikara to adhikari,
To ail us from this misery, to help us through our tyranny.
They promised us food, they promised us life;
But continued- our deformed births, and deaths, many.

They see us in pain, they hear our cries.
“Please believe our fate, we say no lies.
We have no legs, we have no hands
Some food, some water, some clothes; we need no brands!”

Of hundred that we protest today, we’d have only ninety tomorrow,
We’d have seventy the day after, but you’re still the master!
We beg, we plead, don’t keep us hungry for your greed.
If nothing, give us a compensation for the beloved deceased.

Mervyn D’Silva is a student of journalism at St Aloysius College (Autonomous), Mangaluru

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Mafazah Sharafuddin
August 9,2020

My homeland does not exist
Except in my mind.

It sits among my childhood memories

Uses my ambitions as a toy
No matter what I do, it stands sentinel.

What is it, you may ask.
And I will answer. 

It is a long, long street.
I walk down it and I do not hear
The sounds of people crying in pain.

No fetus cut out of a swollen belly
No man with his hands pressed together 
Begging for his life.
There are no broken voices 
Singing national anthems in their dying breath.
No children crying for their dead grandfather.

No sounds of battering rams 
And falling debris 
And sacrilege.

I walk down the street and I do not see
The sight of ravaged souls tonight.

There are no children bloodied
In their once white clothes
No scarves being ripped from the bowed heads
Of hopeless women.
There is no little girl
In her burnt up frock 
Laying completely still on the sidewalk.

The taps run clear
And there is no blood
Not on this street.

I walk down the street and I do not taste
Ash and gunpowder
And the copper tang of blood.

No salt from tears and sweat from toil
No bitterness 
Matured over seventy years.

I walk down the street and I do not feel
The burning anger of the oppressed 
The hopelessness of the neglected.

There is no deep chasm of sorrow
When the sons of mothers once sat.
No rage where the daughters lay
With blood between their legs.

You ask me again,
What is it?
It is a place of peace, I say.

The window is open 
And we are sipping amber tea
Spiced with cardamom and rose water.
You look at me and I see it again.
You are yet another victim
And so am I.

The window is open 
And I can hear the chants from two streets away.
They scream for freedom
They scream liberty and revolution.

For a moment I am tempted to cry 
For lives lost,
For our lives 
That have turned black with the turn of the century
When our homeland turned against us.
No, not our homeland, our country.

My homeland does not exist,
Except in my mind.

But the voices are rising 
Like smoke from a forest fire
Burning up bigotry in its wake.

My homeland does not exist.
Not yet.

Mafazah Sharafuddin is a humanities student, studying BA Psychology, Journalism and English Literature

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P A Hameed Padubidri
April 23,2020

I looked around me
As I was walking in my own shoes.

Right & left
Front & back, up & down
But none is around...

Just opened the windows
And took a little peep,
As if a lover take a furtive look into his Lover's casement ajar;
I found none. 

Then I opened my front door...
Looked right & left
And rushed to the main gate,
If I could see anyone behind the wall;
Still I did see none.

Alas!, 
I saw broken glazed glasses-  
That are being scattered everywhere
On the ground...

Also, I looked at withered leaves 
That are falling down & rolling away.
I eyed on rapidly falling stars, 
But I became helpless to know, 
Where they fell on. 

I could see the giant ship sailing, 
In the mid of deep surging Ocean,
Lost their navigation 
To the 'invisible storm';
The passengers are crying-
Loudly & helplessly,
But the captain sent SOS...!!! 

I went hurriedly & sat on the chair-
Deeply contemplating like a oblivious Saint;
And ridiculously conjectured:

"WORLD IS TEMPORARILY UNDER MAINTENANCE?!"

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